Since you have been gone
I feel as though I live a life that is not mine
It is as foreign as a far away country
I exist but cant thrive,
I live but cannot find life
I go on day-to-day just getting bye
With no goal or reason
Is this living?

Sometimes I feel you are the lucky one
No pain, no worries, no life that is not yours
No hopes or dreams that should be there
But just dont come

I feel no joy at the beginning of each new day
As I have no-one to share it with
I feel no thrill at new discoveries
Or new dreams
Or new accomplishments
Or at each new sunrise

I no longer feel I have a purpose
A reason
To be just me

And who am I now? Without you?
I cannot ever imagine being just me
I want to be a we but with no-one
To be my other half I remain lost
Floundering, searching for meaning
And will to go on.
But find the search too much
Too lonely
Too slow
Too impossible